It always amazes and fascinates me to see how people find within themselves—and bring out—strengths precisely during times of darkness and pain.
The most incredible and moving example, of course, is our hostages—each and every one of them, in their own way, found extraordinary human strength and resilience in the tunnels of Gaza. One kept kosher and observed Shabbat, another shared a piece of pita she found with her companions despite intense hunger, one made Kiddush there, and another sang “Shalom Aleichem” in Arabic. They all speak of human bravery and mutual care, and though they emerge physically thin, broken, and wounded, their spirits are powerful, full, and whole—astonishing all of us.
What’s most amazing is that they are all regular people—normal individuals, people just like you and me. It’s just that the abnormal situation they were placed in drew out of them extraordinary strength that leaves us in awe.
It’s often said that from darkness comes light—the advantage of light that comes from darkness. And I recognize that in myself as well. Specifically in moments of real challenge, in places of darkness—that’s where I found peace and acceptance within myself, calm and confidence in the righteousness of the path.
In fact, in this week’s Torah portion—Parashat Pekudei, which concludes the Book of Exodus—there’s a verse at the end that speaks about this. It says, “And when the cloud lifted from above the Tabernacle, the children of Israel would embark on all their journeys.” The Rebbe sees here a fundamental message: the journeys of the Jewish people—“all their journeys”—begin not when the cloud of the Divine Presence rests among them, bringing Divine revelation, light, goodness, and warmth, but rather “when the cloud lifted”—when it gets a bit dark, confusing, unclear, and difficult—that’s when the journey begins.
I try to understand—what is it about darkness, difficulty, and moments when a person is backed into a corner that causes them to bring forth something they didn’t even know they had, something those around them never imagined they were capable of?
I’m not certain, but I suspect that at least one major factor is the disappearance of the inner voices that distract a person from connecting to their core purpose.
Most people carry diminishing inner voices—each in their own area of life. “You won’t succeed,” “They’ll surely say no,” “They won’t want you,” “They won’t like you,” “They’ll laugh at you,” “They’ll think you’re fat or ugly.” And there are also the voices of so-called ‘morality and righteousness’—like, “It’s not nice to say that,” “It’s not appropriate to do this,” “How will it look to others,” and so on. These voices are responsible for a large part of the obstacles that hold a person back from advancing toward their goal or destination.
But when a person is in a survival situation and sees only one path forward, there’s no room for these voices—they simply don’t show up. It’s a moment of “to be or not to be,” and the person chooses to be, and moves forward. There may be dilemmas, but once resolved, the head lifts and one marches on with dignity. Embarrassment or “what will they say” hardly matters in such moments.
The lingering question is: How can we be clear, sharp, and focused even when we’re not, thank God, in survival mode?
How can we silence those inner diminishing voices even when everything is okay, regular, and normal?
Do you think this text could also serve as a preparation for Passover, the Festival of Freedom?
Because at least for me, every time I manage to overcome those inner voices, I become a free person—a man who is free and liberated.
Shabbat Shalom,
Rabbi Zalman Wishedski